getting by

It will be a month tomorrow since my niece and nephew left for Italy. And although I cried several nights after, I can say that I'm recovering now. I no longer cry everytime I see pictures of them in Italy or whenever I chat with the girl on FB.

I'm still missing them so much though. But I can only think of the memories for now:

• The girl and I enjoying a road trip with my barkada. I'm more close to her than the boy.
• A conversation with the boy about crushes and bestfriends
• The 3 of us malling, me giving them each baon (money) for them to spend
• Helping them finish school assignments and projects (it's always fun and filled with occasional arguments! :p
• Attending their school activities (always camera-battery draining moments) in behalf of their mommy and daddy
• My sleep-overs at their house, with the girl always my bed companion.
• Conversation with the girl about everything under the sun. Ahhm, especially boys!
• Holidays filled with their laughter and excitement. Gift-giving mostly them as recipients.
• Beach and pool fun. They love the water!
• Just being with them.

We are all adjusting but the least we can do is to help each other cope. They're adjusting there as much as we are here. But for sure, everything will go back to normal again. Soon. :)

Finally!

Words can't describe how everyone felt about this reunion. After 3 long years, they're together at last.
Will miss them so much. It's hard but seeing how happy they are now will make it easier.
Until we see each other again. :) We love you!

leaving soon

My life has been full of hellos and goodbyes. The hellos are nonetheless the happy encounters that put my life with vigor and excitement.

What about goodbyes? No matter how I make myself see the brighter and positive side, it's still a manifestation that something and/or someone is being taken away from you. Of circumstances, the necessity and the reality.

My niece and nephew are leaving soon. It's only 8 days before they leave for Italy to be with their Mommy and grandparents for good. It makes me deeply sad. But I thought, it's too selfish of me to even feel that way. And so instead of grieving our loss, our loneliness for their leaving, I'd rather be happy knowing that after all the hardships and sacrifices their Mommy had gone through for them, finally, it all paid of. She'll not be missing her kids anymore.

It'll be hard for us, the ones they will leave behind. Missing them too much will be an everyday struggle. But I guess, knowing that they'll be happier soon makes it bearable.

Piccoli tanto tempo, ci manca sicuramente. Non bisogna mai dimenticare. We Love You, oh, così caro.

cars

Jakob has this interests in cars, I think most boys do. And some girls like me. :p Back then, I was on the verge of buying the Hummer toy car in yellow at a mall had I not stopped myself because it's too pricey for a toy. And I don't think it's practical for me to buy one.

OK, I digress. I love Hot Wheels. And Jakob too so I bought two for him days ago-

I am wanting to have a collection of cars and I hope this will be the start. So that means I'll be buying for me and Jakob. Ah, that'll costs a lot so I'd be buying lang occasionally and if my budget permits.

Meanwhile, I'll let my nephew enjoy his Hot Wheel cars with his other toys. And here's hoping he'd take care and keep them safely. You know how the little boys are. :)

back on

Ever since my last post which exudes a sad feeling, I never thought I'd be able to once again get the groove back to chronicle their day-to-day happenings.

But then again, I guess I was deeply consumed by a deep sadness knowing that someday, the very things I'll be posting here will no longer from what my eyes have seen and what I've experienced. They're growing really, really fast and somehow, everyday is always a big leap for the changes in them. The girl once quipped that I'm like kissing her like every minute when we're together.

They're back to school and I want to think that it's just a quick phase and all will be working out again. Waiting can be tiring, but all we could do is hope and pray that very soon, a reunion will eventually happen.

That one reunion I always pray for. The one we, who love them dearly, ardently wish to come true.